Saturday, 9 February 2008

Alcoholic Chat

Alcoholic Chat is what I do on this site. Only it's really chat about alcoholism. Jane appears to be in recovery. That's why I haven't posted anything for several days. She runs 2.7 miles every morning and is fairly fit. I suggested that she trains for a London 10k charity event in the summer and she agreed. She'll gradually build up to it. I'll be the trainer.

She goes to AA every day. Well put it this way she leaves the apartment every day and comes back 2 hours or more later and she briefly describes what she has done at AA when I ask. I also don't see her running the 2.7 miles.

Any genuine trust between us is broken because of all the years of her lying to me about drinking. Sure I've lied to her a couple of times and she uses that as a defense but she has lied a thousand times, blindly, wantonly, crazily about drinking. Is she still lying when she says she has been running and going to AA?

At the moment I believe her and anyway my objective is to simply keep the peace. One thing is for sure, she has not been on a drinking binge for about 6 weeks and that is a massive plus. Usually it's every 2-3 weeks for a week or so. So something good is happening.

She has stopped taking Antabuse daily as it acted as a laxative, she said. I haven't seen her take Antabuse for a few days so I must ask her about that tomorrow.

Conclusion: at the moment things are looking up. She seems a little calmer too. Lets see what's next.

Photograph - flat calm - copyright Elsie Esq.

1 comment:

  1. I will admit now I have not read all your posts but please look up "codependency". It develops from a relationship with an alcoholic. You said in an earlier post you felt like all the good is being sucked from you and into her. She is getting her help, I really think you need to get yours. Your RELATIONSHIP is damaged, and it is formed by two people. I think that you need to help yourself now.

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I'd like to hear the experiences of both alcoholics and the victims of alcoholics, please.