Saturday, 30 August 2008
Vineyard - future booze - photo by Vermin Inc
Alcoholism Cat - Well, Jane had another binge when recovering from the operation. This time it was for several days. She asked me to get some Vodka during the binge, which I did to avoid injury to herself and bought 2 bottles. I had hoped that she would drink one bottle per day but drank both in under 24 hours as far as I recall. Same ole problem. She felt like sh*t after the binge (about the equivalent of 1-2 bottles of Vodka from the bottle per day - she is not a heavy person). I think she stopped because of fear of losing her job which I had hammered home might happen.
She had to go back to hospital at the end of the binge due to stomach pain. I have lost count the number of times she has gone this year. I took her to hospital as the ambulance service were understandably reluctant to come and get her. It wasn't after all a life threatening situation although Jane was looking terrible, hyperventilating and had a bad pain in her stomach as I said, which was swollen.
Anyway she stayed at hospital for a couple of days. She was diagnosed with something a lot less important (I wont tell you what) and released. Jane is hell to be with after a binge anyway but add to the that the recovery from the operation and she was awful. I think that she suffers from Histrionic personality disorder (HPD). As I said she fell over 3 times over the last three mini-binges and has a massive black eye which will take ages to disappear. That raises another point; people may think that I have hit her when she has simply fallen over on a hard floor. In fact she was lucky she didn't do more damage. She has an indentation in her skull from a previous fall.
Anyway, I resolved to leave sometime. It is a balance. I find it difficult to live alone but there comes a point when it is better to live alone.
I am making enquiries for renting somewhere............lets see.
Alcoholism chat to Still drinking