Jane has been missing for about a week. I have reported her missing to the police. I've checked hospitals and her flat et cetera without success. This is simply a record of this moment as much for my benefit as anyone else's. The way I feel at the moment, I am almost sure that she has ended her life but of course I can't be sure but that is the way it feels. Jane has been particularly down recently having lost her job and has been through three binges. This is out of the ordinary, what is happening at the moment. It is very difficult for me to do anything else at the moment other than try to find her. But where do you start? I have to use my knowledge of her and the way she thinks to figure out where she is right now.