My Alcoholic Partner is getting better. There is hope for all victims of alcoholics. I have stuck by her because at heart I love her. I sometimes think that I am better than most other people - I am not. It's just my ego coming out. We are all flawed to varying degrees. I am no better than her but she is damaged (as am I).
For many years I had given up hope of her being "cured" of her alcoholism. I had grown to accept it as an inconvenience. Although it took about 8 years to get to that exalted state of mind. Of course you can only control alcoholism but it can be controlled permanently and I am beginning to think that she can do this. She has been sober for 90 days. I have said in earlier posts that I thought she was sneaking a drink while out running. This may be true but I am changing my mind on this.
The next hurdle will be to maintain discipline and keep going to AA after the initial 90 day period. We have agreed that she should keep going. At the moment she is looking for a job so when she gets work it will be harder and she may fall again. There will be falls and successes. In the end I feel that she may now win this battle.
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Alcoholic Partner to AA spirituality