The Diary of a Victim of an Alcoholic

Alcoholism - Psychology - Every day that you don't drink when you want to drink is one more moment when you have retrained your mind to stop seeking pleasure through alcohol . You can play tricks on the mind to help stop alcoholism. The mind is trainable, we know that. It can be untrained but it's hard. One example of playing tricks on the mind is the use of Antabuse. This drug takes away the reward element of the action/reward cycle that results in alcoholism. Action=drink alcohol - Reward=pleasure . With Antabuse it's action=the opposite to pleasure (violently sick), so you don't drink. Antabuse could be a placebo and still work (as long as you never drank at the same time, to test it). At the moment, Jane is doing well. Yesterday she said, "It's 15 days since I drank". This refers to her Christmas binge. She is counting the days, which seems a good thing. I say there is a long way to go because she has a gap in between binges of about 15 days anyway, bu...

In my last post I said that I had been keeping an eye on the level of Vodka in bottle that was not hidden and that is was going down as Jane secretly (she thought) drunk her way through it. Hell, she must have been pleased to see that bottle. Why don't I clear the home entirely of booze, surely that would stop her? NO. She'll just go out and buy some whether she is drunk or not and if she goes out and buys some booze when she is drunk she is vulnerable. She can go outside to the shops in a very drunk and very disheveled state; no dignity, no pride. She has been mugged in the past or so she says. In one period some 3 years ago she had about 6 crimes committed against her in the same number of weeks; so she said. And there was, on the face of it, physical evidence (broken glass etc) to back it up. Was it all true? Who knows. She is vulnerable though, that is obvious. Anyway back to Alcoholics Trick No.1. When she drinks from a bottle that is not hidden by her (most are), she wil...