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Alcoholism a Reflection of Our Interior


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Is Alcoholism a Reflection of Our Interior? What the hell do I mean? In the last post I referred to our dark interior. The space inside us that only we see. No one ever sees that except us. All of us present the outside of us to the world. Some people present a whole person to the world that is completely different to the person they are. Others modify the interior and present a more acceptable exterior to the world. None of us show our dark interior to the world. That is why it is our dark interior that only we know. Sometimes, though it leaks out of us like a poison. It becomes visible. This might happen when we have had a drink and are more open with our feelings. But sometimes the pain of our interior is reflected in the need to kill it through the chemical ethanol alcohol, which is dressed up to hide the fact that it is a chemical designed to kill the pain in our interior.

There is not one person on the planet that does not have a longing for something better. Does that demonstrate the dysfunctionality of humankind? The difference between me and Jane, my alcoholic partner, is not that I don't feel pain inside me and she does, but that her pain or longing for something better is greater than mine and that she does not have the means to control it other than through ethanol alcohol.

Is Alcoholism a Reflection of Our Interior? Yes, a reflection of a damaged interior through exterior and uncontrollably visible actions.

What Price Alcohol? A Practical Discussion Of The Causes And Treatment Of Alcoholism I don't know how good this book is but it might be worth a try.

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  1. Anonymous2 February 2009 at 19:21

    oh, well said. Where did i here this b4?

    the self as others see me
    the self as i believe i am
    my real self

    awesome!
    N

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  2. Anonymous9 August 2011 at 11:28

    This is beautiful and truly relays what lies underneath the surface of alcoholism. Your compassion is honorable.

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