The Diary of a Victim of an Alcoholic

Take a daughter who should have been a son. The mother wanted a boy. The mother can barely bring herself to name the child. The mother is cold and emotionally dead. The father is good but Victorian strict - too strict. He is too critical of his daughter. The parents are incompatible. They argue. They shout at each other and don't get on. They stick together because there is nothing better for them. The formative years roll out under this umbrella of uncertainty, antagonism and criticism. The objective of a parent is to instill confidence in a child. The opposite is being achieved. The child becomes very insecure. She grows up. She has low self-esteem. An insecure person with low self-esteem automatically finds life a lot more difficult than it already is. She discovers alcohol and it smooths out the rough edges. It makes her difficult and uncomfortable life more comfortable. Her brain warms to that feeling. As her body becomes habituated to ethanal alcohol she needs more ...

Alcoholism chat is what a lot of this Blog is about. It's meaningful chat though, from the heart, direct and honest. It's the only way to tell the world what it is like to be the partner of an alcoholic. Jane is a very needy person. Yesterday she was depressed and had difficulty in doing things. Certainly she had difficulty in going to AA but eventually went. I took here there and she got the bus back. She felt better after the meeting, which shows the usefulness of Alcoholics Anonymous. It always pays to actually do something about the problem no matter how hard it is initially to do it. It takes a lot of effort sometimes to get off ones backside up off the floor and do things but it always helps the mood and gives some hope and motivation. Yesterday, Jane was depressed when she went to bed the night before and went for a run early. When she came back from the run she was in better spirits. This could be the effect of the run or she could have bought a miniature of Vodka on th...