The Diary of a Victim of an Alcoholic

My Alcoholic Partner is getting better. There is hope for all victims of alcoholics. I have stuck by her because at heart I love her. I sometimes think that I am better than most other people - I am not. It's just my ego coming out. We are all flawed to varying degrees. I am no better than her but she is damaged (as am I). For many years I had given up hope of her being "cured" of her alcoholism. I had grown to accept it as an inconvenience. Although it took about 8 years to get to that exalted state of mind. Of course you can only control alcoholism but it can be controlled permanently and I am beginning to think that she can do this. She has been sober for 90 days. I have said in earlier posts that I thought she was sneaking a drink while out running. This may be true but I am changing my mind on this. The next hurdle will be to maintain discipline and keep going to AA after the initial 90 day period. We have agreed that she should keep going. At the moment she is looki...

Alcoholics Anonymous Spirituality is a real concept. I have not made a post on this diary for a long time because Jane, my alcoholic partner, is making real progress thanks to religiously sticking to visiting Alcoholics Anonymous every day. She will have done her 90 days of visits (in a straight 90 days of course although this is not obligatory) come this Monday next. I am very impressed and relieved. It is wonderful to be living almost normally for once. Although I have known her and been her "boyfriend" (wrong word really for a nearly 60 year old person) for abut 9-10 years, I have only been living with her for the last year. Last Christmas I was driven to starting this diary due to her misbehavior over Christmas, again. Since starting the Blog she has improved although she doesn't know about this diary. I don't want to boast but I think and hope my presence has been the factor that has forced a change. Over the previous 9 years we lived apart and alone. She has be...