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A Quick Update

At the date of this post 29th Dec 2014, we are still together but living apart. We see each other when we can and go out together. We have space to ourselves. We have plans to live together in a home which allows us both to have some space but be together.

Jane still drinks but much less and she manages it better. She holds down a job. We still argue but have good times together. We went to the local park today for walk and had a nice time. It was cold and sunny.

I suppose this is life; the imperfections of life and of relationships. Sometimes when I look at her she shows me, in her expression, her tender, childish, charming undamaged interior. It is the face of innocence. Innocence is beautiful and precious. It is pure.

In part, at least, my relationship with Jane, from my side, is one of carer and father. It fills a need I have. Perhaps from her side she needs her father who died years ago. We are father/daughter to a certain extent.

I feel psychologically messed up these days but solid and with the resolve to carry on and make the best of things.

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  1. Anonymous10 January 2015 at 18:20

    I am glad to read that you are well and that you and Jane are still together, working it all out in the name of love. I have used your site many times for comforting words and thoughts following the death of a loved one to alcohol. You and Jane's story has helped in many ways my friend. Stay well.

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  2. Anonymous11 January 2015 at 00:20

    Thanks for your comment. It is still tricky, our relationship, and maybe it will always be like that. And it is not just about alcohol. Sometimes it depresses me but at the end of the day we are still having fun together. My best wishes to you for 2015.

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I'd like to hear the experiences of both alcoholics and the victims of alcoholics, please.

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