It's gone bad again because Jane has lost her job which has caused her to go into meltdown in my opinion. She has binged three times since she lost her job about a month ago, gone to hospital and has yet to apply for a job. It's all very dire, very bleak and a complete disaster. I genuinely fear for her life. I have hardly seen her in a normal condition since she has been out of work. That is the update. Sorry it is so short but not much more to say to be honest except that it is a depressing situation which has a hopelessness about it which I'm afraid is typical of a binge alcoholic like Jane. Their lives are nihilistic. Bleak and without real hope. Jane can't cope at the moment. It may change.
photo copyright crowolf published under a creative commons license kindly granted. These 2 ignominiously go together - Alcoholism and Death . Just after Jane's mini-binge (believe me it was a very minor binge by her standards) of about 20 hours she felt, as usual, suicidal. Jane always feels huge remorse and regret after a binge. She feels bad about letting herself down and bad about messing me around (although it wasn't that bad to be honest - it did though mess up what could have been some time together, which we are lacking at the moment due to work). Jane really does genuinely feel suicidal after a binge. But I must say I don't think she'll ever do it. She hasn't got the courage - I know that sounds horrendously cruel etc etc but this blog is about the plain truth unvarnished. It takes courage to kill yourself and a lots of despair. Jane has the one but not the other. Anyway to get more positive. We had a little talk and I in my usual style, mentioned...
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I'd like to hear the experiences of both alcoholics and the victims of alcoholics, please.