It is still calm. I have nothing to say. No blood and guts. No near death scenes. Just fairly normal. It seems my ultimatum did some good but this will not last. We are talking about me moving into the main bedroom as a bolt hole so when the next binge does take place I can keep out of the way and live my life fairly normally while the storm blows over!
photo copyright crowolf published under a creative commons license kindly granted. These 2 ignominiously go together - Alcoholism and Death . Just after Jane's mini-binge (believe me it was a very minor binge by her standards) of about 20 hours she felt, as usual, suicidal. Jane always feels huge remorse and regret after a binge. She feels bad about letting herself down and bad about messing me around (although it wasn't that bad to be honest - it did though mess up what could have been some time together, which we are lacking at the moment due to work). Jane really does genuinely feel suicidal after a binge. But I must say I don't think she'll ever do it. She hasn't got the courage - I know that sounds horrendously cruel etc etc but this blog is about the plain truth unvarnished. It takes courage to kill yourself and a lots of despair. Jane has the one but not the other. Anyway to get more positive. We had a little talk and I in my usual style, mentioned...
"It seems my ultimatum did some good but this will not last."
ReplyDeleteYou know I've been reading your posts for a while. Ending then with 'but it will not last' sounds like something *you* may want to check out. You say it *a lot*. And for a gal to go that long is great, not oh here she comes again, although it may add entertainment value, but that is not what ya'll r about.
So, let's root for Jane, yay, it's been a long time (although keep it here since it seems to work for her what she's doing)! And for you, maybe a more optimistic attitude!! YAAY!!!
So very nice to meet you Michael! I'm surprised you've gone public..but it's nice to know the real person behind the blog.
ReplyDeleteIt's so wonderful Jane has gone this long. You must be very happy. Y'know I would prefer this blog to end if it meant you both were happy and healthy.
Linda
Pennsylvania
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ReplyDeleteYour picture is included in your comment. Perhaps you might want to delete that?? Just clicking on it gives your information. No harm coming from me, but you might spark interest in someone who could potentially hurt you.
ReplyDeleteLinda
Hi Linda, I might do as you suggest if I can. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteHi guys, I just deleted 2 comments because inadvertently my picture accompanied them! Thanks for the comments. I am trying to be optimistic but the position is fragile because realistically Jane could start a binge at any time.
ReplyDeleteHello Freddy! Are you enjoying my President and First Lady in London? Seems like they're attracting quite the crowd! Hope you're enjoying the peace at home, also.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you,
Linda in Pennsylvania
PS. Glad you deleted those posts.
Hi Linda, I actually went down to the G20 demonstrations to protest at the Bank of England! Anyway, Obama and Brown are all over the news here. Bold promises of fighting the recession. Lets see and get over the debt.
ReplyDeletehey, I hope you're ok. I'm like kind of a 'binge' drinker but mine are like fri, sat and the worst is 4-8 drinks a night. Gets worse? I believe it. My tolerance is increasing but i cut myself off. I don't think Jane's case is not un-achievable for me. in enough time i could get there. hope not though. Thank for the opener.
ReplyDeletei didn't see your pic. If you want to talk offline about this stuff: lauranlh@hotmail.com - my pseudo name and email (and delete it after you read it pls.)
ReplyDeleteSure do miss your blog, Freddie. Hope this means good news in your life.
ReplyDeleteLinda in Pennsylvania
Hi Michael have you stopped the Blog as nothing has been posted for quite some time it would be good to have an update as i am sure I am not the only one who follows your and Janes story
ReplyDeleteBest wishes
sue
Hi, Guys and Girls. Thanks for your interest and concern. It is appreciated. I have stopped for a while for two major reasons. One, things are more stable here so there is less to report and second I have a more important website that I need to constantly work on leaving little time for this blog.
ReplyDeleteJane is OK. At the moment no binges just some drinking after work that is more manageable.
I'll leave the blog open but it will gradually fade unless it is fed posts! But I have to accept that. I may come back to it in due course. It just depends.
Take care and thanks again. You were nice to me.