She just does not get some things. We will agree that doing something in a certain way will help and the next minute she is back to her old ways. She has no understanding of her alcoholism at all. After 30 years of binge drinking she still doesn't have the faintest idea as to the underlying cause.
She had a mini-binge for two days and then stopped and I think she has restarted. She fell asleep on the sofa last night. She was meant to work today but has said she won't go in as she feels sick. She was sick last night she says. There is so much stuff on her bedroom floor you can't get into the room, and that is normal, day to day conditions. It rarely gets better than that.
I asked her to tell me when she feels like a drink so at least I would be prepared. This last mini-binge was bad because I had just treated her to one or two things, given her things and we get home, she goes to bed and gets drunk. Nothing said, no warning, nothing. That felt like a slap in my face after I had been particularly nice to her. She doesn't get it though.
She doesn't get anything really. It is like she is in a deep trench of habit without any understanding and no ability to get out of it. This is a form of madness.
There is no doubt that she has some
I am sorry if this sounds harsh. I just get fed up. And please don't ask me why I stay. I am also not saying that I am better. But I am at least rational.