level vodka by Andrew Ebrahim
Just a bit of alcoholism chat. From an SEO point of view I am not sure whether to call the post "alcoholic chat" or "alcoholism chat". It should be the latter I think.
Jane starts work tomorrow. She is up and about but very fragile, huffing and puffing, shuffling and disappearing into her bunker. She said she would make work (while she going through the binge). She is able to think quite lucidly during a large binge sometimes as she tends to have mini pauses when the booze wears off a bit. She then almost stops, decides she doesn't like the real world and goes back down into the black abyss one more time, out of it all, in her parallel universe of never ending dozing but never sleeping, lying on the bed in the darkness for hour after hour, day after day, amongst the extreme mess of bottles and waste food surrounding her.
You hear the occasional rustling of plastic bags and the clinking of bottles, the unscrewing of screw tops and the slight gasp after a swig of neat vodka. Then endless hours of silence.
She occasionally cries out my name. When I go to her she is silent, half asleep unable to talk.
Will she be up to work tomorrow? She'll definitely be going, but she'll find it hard going. Her preparation has been less than perfect.
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Thanks for your blog and your honesty. I stumbled across this website while I was searching alcoholism. My father is 66 years old, an alcoholic, chain smoker and very depressed. Every day I think it must be his last. He seems so sick, but continues to drink no matter what the cost. It is so very sad. His brother was an alcoholic and he committed suicide in his early 50's. There are also mental issues in the family. I want desparately to help my father but I don't know what to do.
ReplyDeleteHi, thanks for your comment. I am the same. I have tried and tried again to help, to stop Jane drinking. I have given up and just accept and accommodate it, work around it.
ReplyDeleteI don't think we can help. It is down to the alcoholic. I have though had some limited success like getting her to go to AA for quite long periods of time or just going for a long walk to get fitter after a binge.
I feel that I have had success on a small scale but the underpinning psychological problems are beyond me. I did though succeed in getting her to go to a psychiatrist who did no good. Lots of them are frankly no good.
I went to the justice of the peace and had an order written that had my father taken, against his will, for physciatric evaluation. It didn't do anything except make him angry (understandably). You are lucky to have gotten Jane to go to AA, my father won't even admit he has a problem.
ReplyDeleteI agree with you, I don't think we can help. I believe that I am finally coming to terms with that. I want to be his saviour and help him get through this horrible disease, but, he needs to figure it out on his own. I don't think that will happen though, I think he will be dead before then.
Good luck to you.
Hi, thanks for the comment. I think we think alike! There is just one possibility. It may be possible to make an alcoholic unlearn what they have learnt (in becoming an alcoholic). The process would take as long as the learning process say 10 years.
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