Friday, 20 June 2008
Alcoholism and Death
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These 2 ignominiously go together - Alcoholism and Death. Just after Jane's mini-binge (believe me it was a very minor binge by her standards) of about 20 hours she felt, as usual, suicidal. Jane always feels huge remorse and regret after a binge.
She feels bad about letting herself down and bad about messing me around (although it wasn't that bad to be honest - it did though mess up what could have been some time together, which we are lacking at the moment due to work).
Jane really does genuinely feel suicidal after a binge. But I must say I don't think she'll ever do it. She hasn't got the courage - I know that sounds horrendously cruel etc etc but this blog is about the plain truth unvarnished. It takes courage to kill yourself and a lots of despair. Jane has the one but not the other.
Anyway to get more positive. We had a little talk and I in my usual style, mentioned the great sports stars of today. It doesn't matter what sport they always "take the positive" out of a negative situation. They take the good from the bad and build on it remaining positive. This is the only way to go forward. And we must go forward otherwise killing yourself is the only alternative.
So, Jane had a short binge of 20 hours. She recovered just in time for work (had to go to work on public transport because she would failed a breath test and been a hazard to other road users).
She also has resolved afresh to go to AA more frequently and even went for a run. Yes, we're taking the positive and moving forward. She also mentioned my darling cat (I wish Jane could be more like my cat!). She said she couldn't kill herself as my cat would miss her.
Alcoholism and death are bed fellows but not this time around. Show her the light please of a normal life.............
Death comes to an alcoholic in many different ways. It need not be due to alcoholic poisoning or damage done to the body by alcohol. It can and frequently is an accident such as falling over onto a hard surface. Jane does that frequently when drunk.
It can be walking into traffic when out buying some more booze. Or it can be medical negligence in hospital. As an alcoholic you invariably end up in hospital a lot (compared to "normal" people). And once in hospital anything can happen. Alcoholics lie and deceive doctors. They misdiagnose. They operate for the wrong reasons and so on. There is a real potential for death in hospital.
Jane has had pancreatitis a few times which is life threatening. And she nearly died after an appendix operation that should never have happened as it was a mistaken diagnosis. The pain was caused by the alcohol not the appendix! Alcohol and death or serious injury go together nicely.
Alcoholism and Death to a post about the short binge discussed above