Alcoholism chat is what a lot of this Blog is about. It's meaningful chat though, from the heart, direct and honest. It's the only way to tell the world what it is like to be the partner of an alcoholic.
Jane is a very needy person. Yesterday she was depressed and had difficulty in doing things. Certainly she had difficulty in going to AA but eventually went. I took here there and she got the bus back.
She felt better after the meeting, which shows the usefulness of Alcoholics Anonymous. It always pays to actually do something about the problem no matter how hard it is initially to do it. It takes a lot of effort sometimes to get off ones backside up off the floor and do things but it always helps the mood and gives some hope and motivation.
Yesterday, Jane was depressed when she went to bed the night before and went for a run early. When she came back from the run she was in better spirits. This could be the effect of the run or she could have bought a miniature of Vodka on the way back from the run and drunk it as she walked from the shops to our home and that could be the thing that lifted her spirits.
I know that I am getting paranoiac. It gets you that way, when an alcoholic lies and lies again and always drinks secretively.
She is making some friends at AA. One of the people went to 4 AA meetings in one day. She did the washing up after the meeting apparently. She also spoke. I always ask her to participate as much as possible in the AA meetings to get the most out of them. I'm waiting for the next binge. It will almost be a relief to get it out of the way and release some of the tension in Jane.
Her desire to drink is not only born out of addiction, but punishment for being bad.
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photo copyright ozlogy under creative commons. The person in the photo is not Jane, the person who I am writing about. Thanks for the nice photo ozlogy