The idea is that Jane goes to Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) every day (new years resolution) and I help her to get there if needed. As I mentioned she doesn't seem that keen despite agreeing with me that the most important thing in her life is to control her drinking. Her alcoholism has ruined her life for the past 25 years or so. It's also messed up mine to an extent but I'm kind of used to it.
She has to find work as well (recently redundant). These are the two priorities. The first of which is to deal with her alcoholism. Everything will follow on from that.
I just don't sense commitment. She wriggles out of it. She claims she is too busy. She simply is not too busy. And anyway, everything should be dropped to deal with her illness. I'll do the rest if I have too.
Because if she is not drinking my life improves a lot so even on a selfish basis it pays to help Jane to stop drinking.
Anyway she went to AA at lunchtime on her own. She said she'd be gone about 3 hours. She was, and I don't think she went to AA at all. Although I am guessing. I just have this horrible gut feeling she went somewhere else.
I asked questions about the AA meeting and she gave general answers. She then went to bed at about 7:30pm saying she was tired and fell asleep in front of the TV in her bedroom. Has she been drinking again? Damn, I can't be sure, but it could be.
I think I hear the sound of the screw top opening (of the Vodka bottle), a very well known sound to me and recognisable at 50 paces.
I have no hope whatsoever of her stopping and controlling her alcoholism. The bottom line is the cause of her drinking is still there and she hates herself and life. You've got to change that as well and that frankly is impossible.
At the same time she is taking two Antabuse tablets daily in front of me (I had to remind her this morning). Why take 2? Does she believe that they don't work and takes two to boost the effect? Once again, I don't see commitment. She'll be on a 7 day binge within 2 weeks, I predict.